WENDY'S (:

PRIVATE SPEECH; INNER THOUGHTS.

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Title : Child Guidance Clinic

I understand that I have been talking about my internship recently.

Apologies to those friends who have been hearing about it - via different social media network.

This internship seems so important to me; it's like a stepping stone for my future career.

(am i exaggerating it here? i hope not.)

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Here are some details about the programme (if anyone is interested; if not, just skip the whole chunk):

Programme Scope: Student will be attached to the Research Unit, Department of Child & Adolescent Psychiatry, Institute of Mental Health.

- Orientation to the department
- Work alongside research team on research-related tasks such as :
1. Review medical records for potential patients who might meet the inclusion criteria
2. Plan and conduct intake interviews for research patients (e.g. setting of appointments, explanation of research study to patients)
3. Administer paper-and-pencil questionaires to research participants
4. Administer computer-based structured interviews to confirm clinical diagnosis of participants
5. Co-faciliate group therapy sessions

- Observe departmental activities including :
1. Inpatient ward visits - ward rounds with psychiatrists
2. Sit-in observation sessions with doctors, allied health workers and researchers
3. Sit-in observation sessions for psychological assessments & group therapy sessions

- Participate in departmental training :
Department weekly training sessions (including journal, articles review, cases conferences and live supervision)

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I was in dilemma for weeks after my interview with CGC; worrying what if I have to choose between CGC & THK.

(yes, i was 80% sure that CGC will want me after the interview. i have confidence in my ECH background!)

And this worry came true before I can actually make up my mind.

I personally think that it is a really rare opportunity? Since I checked online, and IMH usually don't take in undergraduate students as internship (i think that's for those who wanted to apply for it on own accord).

I wanted CGC so much at the beginning of my internship programme. but after hearing about the pros and cons of my job scope, i was afraid. Afraid of those helpless moments that I have to experience in a new environment full of strangers. Guess that's part and parcel of entering a new working environment?

I'm glad I have my lovely ladies to discuss this issue with. (: they helped me so much in making up my mind.

I guess they really know my capabilities after working together on countless assignments over the 3 years?

I'm thankful for them for helping me see myself better; and of course their faith in me. (: #luckygirl

verbally accepted CGC on the phone with this admin lady who kept forcing me to make a decision. -.-"

then she even sent me an email to remind me to officially accept the internship via a link.

i don't understand why she has to force me to make up my mind when im entitled to 3 days to make my decision.

maybe she just want to clear her job; and if i reject CGC they can find another candidate? oh well...

just hoping that i made the right decision. (:

P.S. oh ya. mindef didn't even get back to me. not even a rejection email. what are they doing?

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Every time when I recall back my school years, I always feel grateful for everything.

Somehow, I think I am a really lucky girl when it comes to academic area.

Primary School - although i can't make decision on which school i want to enter, but i met great friends. (: friends who live nearby me, till now. friends who truly cares about me, and like me for me. friends who are still keeping in contact even after so many years. friends who we don't have awkward silences with. (:

Secondary School - mindset back then is just find a neighbour school, enter a secondary school with my primary school friends. and yes, i got the secondary school of my first choice. not that it's hard to get in! hahaha! but nonetheless, i got it, and i was in the same class as several primary school friends too! (: & i had really awesome, fulfilling and meaningful secondary school days. made lots of stupid mistakes, hurt self and people around; but those are all part and parcel of life. isn't it? (:

teenagers are the stupidest creatures on earth. xD heard it from a show. and we all had our stupid period.

upper sec, getting to choose the subjects we wanted. i didn't manage to get into the class i wanted initially, but i got into a better one. that's something good, right? (: some people tried so hard yet couldn't get it. lucky right? (:

Poly, ECH - choosing course for poly after sec sch graduation. never knew what i wanted. was looking around, and "early childhood education" caught my eyes, and i set my eyes on it too. honestly, back then, i only wanted ECH. i can't even remember my other choices now. other choices seems like... totally not important to me? haha! lucky girl, i got ECH, the one that i wanted badly! so smooth sailing. and best, i met a bunch of wonderful, and just-use-all-the-nice-words-on-earth-to-describe-them ladies. ^^ they had the biggest role to play in my poly days. without them, school won't be fun, lessons won't be interesting, projects/assignments will be worst than hell. im thankful for them, very.

Uni, NTU, Psychology - i faced my first hiccup in my academic years. i wanted NUS, FASS. i got the chance to go for interview, but i screwed it up. but still, i got my first choice course from NTU. isn't that another smooth sailing transition to my uni life? at least i had the course i wanted, and not some other? (: it's just a different campus. then i met my current clique of friends. coming from diverse background - JC, Poly, Indo, Jap, Tall, Short, Lame, Creative.. (ok..i drifted away from 'background'). It's these people whom I turned to when facing troubles in school - like application for internship; signing up for courses; etc. they are the people who gave advice, discuss the issue, and overcome everything together with. (: im such a lucky girl to be blessed with this clique of friends.

When applying for internship, I also got what I wanted in the first phase of application! how lucky it that?

How long will such luck last? I just hope there's no price to pay for all these smooth sailing academic experiences I had, cos if there's a price, I will be bankrupted 10x over and over again.

What goes around comes around; I shall continue to be nice to people, most of the time.

(I'm human, I can't be nice to everyone ALL the time.)

Enough of such a long, boring, naggy entry. Just wanted to pen down my messy thoughts somewhere.

so sleepy now. bye.

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Title : NEW LOVE

I'm loving this new sport that I picked up. (:

Thinking of ways to have a chance to train and master it.

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Title : TENNIS

Started my very first Tennis lesson on Monday, 23rd May 2011. (:

I'm loving every single bit of it, maybe except for the muscle aches.

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Title : General Elections 2011

7th May 2011

Majority of Singaporeans casted their precious vote. (:
I was lucky enough to be one of them.
Some people waited for 20 years after their legal age just to cast the very first vote.
I'm glad I don't have to wait till 40 or 50 to experience that.

It was kind of a mixed feelings.
First, I was assigned to my secondary school to vote,
which made me excited to enter that school gate once again.
Plus, it was my very first voting experience!

Went down with Daddy and Mummy in the afternoon
the process was less than a minute!
But I still wonder if our vote would be secret.
Cos I don't see the need to write the serial number of our voting pass on the paper?
But, anyway, be it secret or not, I guess everyone has their own reasoning about it.
It's a never ending debate, no matter how much they tried to convince people through media or any means that it's secret.

The waiting for results part was exciting.
That's even more exciting than casting my first vote!
I was never into such politics and cabinet thing,
except for being an NE ambassador back in secondary school which I had to present and talk about it. I still remember one teacher who visits asked me what is a cabinet?
Aren't he suppose to know what's a cabinet?
Anyway, when the results were revealed one by one, it's getting more exciting
especially when I watched with my Daddy.
He understands it, so I just throw questions at him. Hah!
We stayed up till 2.30pm, I didn't catch the last result for Potong Pasir. Hah.
Simply because the exciting one was Aljunied? =X

Speaking of Aljunied, it's surprising and well, history was made, as the Opposition Party won.
Unfortunately we lost a great Foreign Affairs Minister, Mr George Yeo.
I don't know why that I feel so sad about losing him in the Parliament, I never really know much about him to begin with. Just hearing from people around that how great he is as a Minister, and what a great loss it is to Singapore is heartbreaking enough. He is a true gentleman, as I read from those reports about him. It's time for him to take a break after such long servicing years to Singapore. He seems to want to continue his contribution, which is admirable. (:

Another popular girl, Tin Pei Ling (aka Kate Spade). I never seen any of her speeches, I also don't know why people dislike her so much. Maybe she is young, but seriously, it's time to bring in and start grooming new people to take over, since those ministers are aging. I don't know how bad she was in her speeches and all. I guess the photo on FB with her signal twist and Kate Spade box was a bad start. Hah. People may hate her so so much, yet she is really strong to still hold back her tears, face the crowd which she knew that hate her, and continue to give her speech and show her effort to contribute to Singapore. Let's just hope time could prove her capability. (: and, why Kate Spade!? I was still planning to get a Kate Spade bag for myself. =x

After this GE, I realized that politics is really confusing and you really need a lot of support from the citizens. I guess I will never really understand what it is really about. I'm happy with the current Singapore, guess because I'm still a student? I don't have to be like those adults, troubling over housing etc. Just hope that by the time I reached that age group, I do not need to trouble about all these. hah. Complains and dissatisfaction would never end, it's just a matter of time of how those issues are handled. (:

Okay, enough of my two cents worth of thoughts (did i use it correctly?).

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It was GE, supposed to be a PUBLIC HOLIDAY!
Yet, I still have to attend school, for my very first exam paper!
The train was so empty on a Saturday morning!
That's good thing, cos I can sit down and read through my notes. (:
Everyone on the train with white papers of notes are almost like 99% heading to NTU.
I believe NTU is the one and only special school that had exams on the 7th.

One paper down. I have 3 more to go!
Having my first open-book paper tomorrow.
Seriously, I felt insecure and lost without much revision!
Plus, I don't even know how open-book exam is suppose to feel like!
This exam period, I actually feel happy about studying!
I had a kind of weird feeling that I will feel very empty and lost after all my papers.
Because my routine would be broken!
Wake up, nothing to study for! Let's hope this doesn't last long!

23rd May, going to start my tennis module in school!
hope everything would be fun, and people are nice! :D

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Title : exam period

exam period, again.
im actually kind of glad about how spread-out my papers are.
at least i have time in between papers to study. (:
that's something good isn't it?
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lagging behind my cognitive psy notes already. :\
many chapters yet to complete.
hopefully time in between allow me to complete it.
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started on my alcohol, drugs and behavior model.
kind of like biopsy, which majority dislike it.
i find it interesting though. =X
but when it comes to the memorizing..
i think i remember more of the prof's stories instead. hah.
wish me luck for this paper!
it marks the official opening of my exams.
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going to vote for the first time
this saturday (7th may).
wasn't really excited about it initially.
but as time passed, seeing those news reporting,
facebook updates about it.
those made me realize it's kind of really important even for me huh?
im glad that i don't have to wait for many years before i can vote!
hahah! lucky isn't it?
some people only get to vote the very first time when they are like..40 plus? =X
it would be a good experience! :D
oh, did i mention that it's at my secondary school?
that's what made me so excited about it too.
- - - -
concentrate on the studies!
p.s. i think my blog is getting boring, don't really know what to write about. and don't even know if what i had written make any sense. LOL!

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Title : taking each other for granted

are we taking each other for granted?
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we may appear to be problem-less couple,
but in actual fact, are we?
im starting to lose faith.
this sucks.
i hope we aren't.

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Title : achievement

i wonder what have i been trying to achieve in life.
i know i have always wanting to be different from others.
when i realize Degree holders are increasing, i wanted a Ph.D, or at least a Masters.
when i am planning to be back to teaching, and knowing more people are becoming teachers.
i wanted to be someone else, like psychoneurologist, child psychologist, dxo, forsensic psychologist, etc.
just something, unique and different.

is this good or bad?
it's good that im trying to make myself work harder and achieving more.
but at the end of the day, im unsure of what i really wanted to be.
and what am i trying to achieve?

it's the lost-at-cross-roads feelings, again.

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Title : First Post in 2011

This space has been forgotten for a long time!

The last entry was in September 2010. Hah.

Time really flies. (:

Didn't start off 2011 well.

First was my results, next the electives, and timetable. :\

I totally regret for not working hard enough for the last semester.

And I know I always say this every single semester! ):

This semester is extremely disappointing.

I know why is that so, I prefer to keep it to myself.

I promise myself to work extremely hard, harder than before this coming semester!

Im only left with 3 or 4 semesters (including FYP), it's impossible to achieve a first class honours.

Almost impossible to get a 2nd upper, but I must at least get a 2nd lower.

Time to really pull up my CGPA, if not I would be wasting my time!

Seriously, after these few semesters, I realized that I really do enjoy early childhood more.

I guess my passion is still in the field. Decided to just go back to early childhood for my masters program, and hopefully I could qualify for it. :\

if not, i will definitely be totally lost. ):

okay. sad events just leave it aside for a while.

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21st January 2011.

POH XUE NI's 19th Birthday! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST, SWEETEST, CRAZIEST LOVELY SISTER! <3

I am really happy that you arrived in this world 19 years ago.

I spent almost every single day since your birth day till today with you! (:

I love you!

Continue to be awesome, and stay in my life! ;)

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January is ending soon!

Labels: and so i wonder, PRIVATEspeech, RANDOM, spell L-O-V-E

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Title : Eventful September. (:

Made a bouquet of Lilies for Naz's 21st Birthday. (:

Me and the Birthday Girl. (:

She's an awesome friend.

Someone that I never regret meeting,

and is not going to stop loving. (:

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Alive Gallery with Lydia, Joanne and Naz.

The girls are great company.

I can never find another group of company just like them.

LOVE YOU GIRLS!

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Ziqi's 21st! (:

She's another friend that I cherished.

Someone who allows me to vandalize on her white ikea table,

by writing my wishes for her birthday. ;)

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Photos we took on Peipei's 21st. (:

Another friend that I knew for over a decade, and

the friendship will definitely continue on for a few more. (:

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Title : How's Life?

Surprisingly that I am actually blogging still. (:

Maybe this is the place that I could just voice out whatever I have in mind,

without having to worry about what others have to say?

This is somehow considered MY space? (:

HaoJie flew to California, San Diego on Friday 17 Sept 2010 in the early morning, at around 9.45am. He called around 9am, and we talked for a while before he boarded the plane.

Guess I am going to miss him real bad. :\

Initially I thought I was able to overcome the separation anxiety, since he had been to Taiwan for a month for training in the past. But sadly, I am not as strong as I thought I would be.

As time drew nearer to the night on Thursday, I felt the anxiety growing in me.

But well, he seemed pretty excited about the trip, so I suppose he didn't really sense my anxiety.

Hmm. but from his small little actions, I know he knew about my anxiety. (:

But those little things he did made me gonna miss him more.

It has already been 2 days. I am still coping well.

Just that I came to realize little things that I took for granted when he is around.

Oh. And I felt so loved on Friday morning after seeing my facebook. (:

Not only because of his post for me, but also because I have friends who liked that post.

I know they are there for me; They understand how I felt, and they are there supporting and encouraging me. (: You know who you are. Thank you. (:

And of course the short little post by my sister too. All of you are so sweet!

It's not possible that I won't miss him a bit, and it's impossible for me to not feel lonely at times without him around. But I will keep myself occupied with whatever I can so I won't really have the time to miss him too much? (:

There's like 3 birthday celebrations queuing up weekly? Plus school work, and revision maybe?

Quite a packed schedule till he is back? Come on Wendy, it's just ONE MONTH! (:

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Btw, I have the thought of doing some voluntary work at some orphanage.

As usual, I always have the thought, no plan.

Have the plan, no action. :\ bad habit!

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Title : WOAH.

First, I just noticed that my previous entry was more than a month ago.

Oh well, not much readers now, so it doesn't really matter. (:

I shall update when I felt like it. LOL!

And doesn't the long, waited entry make you felt that

TIME FLIES!?

It's already August, and it's ending.

Which means that September is arriving, and school is starting.

I have such a contradictory feeling.
I wanted school to start, but I love working now.

Weird huh?
Haojie kept reminding me that my main duty is to study hard,

not working in the kitchen.

I will keep that in mind. (:

Okay. I am happily working at where I am working now.

The Sous Chefs and others are all pampering me and caring for me so much!

I am so glad that I ain't someone who grew fat easily!

If not, I will like twice my weight now!

They have been stuffing me with great food every single weekdays,

and Haojie would take over during the weekends. LOL!

Well, I love my bosses/colleagues (most of them at least). (:

But due to such packed working schedule,

I hardly have time to meet up with my friends! ):

Can't even meet beloveds for Laksa Steamboat.

Can't even meet Xiaofong & Peipei for a meal.

Can't even go shopping with my sister.

Well, one reason is also cos weekends I will be spending it with Haojie. =x

Headache ar? :\

School starting, it would be slightly easier to meet on the first few weeks,

but when work load arrive, it would be as hard as now. ):

Time to manage my time well!

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Title : GOOGLE

The new phone is forcing me to create a gmail account.

Here's a joke, i didn't know gmail is actually Google mail

till Haojie told me to get it for my phone since everything in my phone

is GOOGLE. (you may start laughing)

Google must be a damn rich company!

But I have to say, I really like google more now. (:

Especially the GOOGLE MAP! two thumbs up!

If i have more thumbs, I would put them up too. HAH!

It's amazing how it locate me on the map,

giving directions (by transit or by car or by legs) to the desired destination,

indicating to turn left or right at junctions for non-map readers (like me),

estimating how long the journey is,

and even the timings of the bus that would arrive at a particular bus stop.

Did I mention about the street view of how the destination or any location as well?

How amazing is the technology now!

Oh, and an update is that I could track where my friends were!

Provided they have a gmail account, and approve me of doing so. LOL!

Cool huh? :D

I never knew why Haojie likes google map so much after he got his HTC Snap.

And now, I got my X10, and I understand WHY! hah!

Was forced to use Google Chrome as my browser on my laptop as well.

Internet Explorer was damn lag, I stopped using and changed to Firefox.

And some time ago, Firefox kind of crash, and can't open up.

"Forcing" me to change to Google Chrome which Haojie recommended me sometime ago,

but I just didn't change to it. =X

And now when I start using it, it's amazing. (:

At least it's faster than firefox, the tabs look nicer too. HAH!

Gosh. Am I experiencing post-decisional dissonance? Hope no.

Google is really a very advance and useful technology. (:

Hope I won't get too dependent on it! :D

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Title : HAPPY 21ST

Finally the 21st June. (:
Spent the day with my loveliest sister
ate at XINWANG TAIWAN CAFE for lunch.
went to shop at SUNTEC.
headed down to ORCHARD ION, WISMA,
then to SOMERSET 313, and CINELEISURE.
she is forever the sweetest person to me. (:
i felt so bad that i actually left her to head home alone
while i waited for haojie. so sorry babe.

Delicated to POH XUE NI.
Girl, I enjoyed the day with you even though it's just normal shopping. (:
I love walking around, arm in arm, with you.
Sorry to cause you all those backaches. x)
and i love what you wrote on my FB wall for my birthday.
it's so touching, and i felt so fortunate to have you as my sister. (:
do continue to be my lovely baby sister ok?
stay healthy, pretty, funny, and stressfree. LOL!
LOVE YOU TTM!

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Headed to CINELEISURE and catch a movie with HaoJie.
Watched " She's out of my League "
Not too bad. (: Surprising the sister was celebrating her 21st birthday in the show.
LOL! Okay, that's quite pointless. =X HAHA!
We headed down to POCKET FULL OF POSIES for dinner. (:
I love that place the first time I saw it. Why?
Cos of the two tables at the entrance/glass wall.
The chairs are SWINGS!
YES! SWINGS YOU KNOW!
plus, it's actually in a florist.
everything look so damn pretty.
the food was not too bad too. (:
Shall go there for some meet up dinners with friends. :D
We took quite a lot of photos, and when HaoJie went to make the payment,
he saw a sign "NO PHOTOGRAPHY".
LOL! so paiseh. but we did apologize to them. (:
headed back home after that. short celebration.
but well, i was dining so happily in that environment. xD LOL!

So friends, let's go there for dinner sometime! (:
Pricing, kind of like Swensens price? Main course is about 15bucks.

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Thank you to all those friends who left their wishes on my FB walls,
and special thanks to those who smsed. (: Usually I prefer SMSes.
To me, they are those that really remember my birthday.
Since FB has the function of telling people whose birthday is it daily,
and I know some of those who wished on FB actually don't know my birthday. =X
BUT! of course there are exceptional that I know they remember my birthday. (:
Nonetheless, THANK YOU ALL FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES! :D

P.S. Never ever wish me early happy birthday on the 20th June when you knew my birthday is on the 21st! I get irritated and pissed of with that. =X thanks. (:

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Title : tWENDY one

happy birthday, in advance. (:
i enjoyed myself on this celebration day.
without the love from the loved ones,
this day won't be a success.
love all you.
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Love this family. (:

Love all these members, ttm. (:

the basketball clique. (:

friendship that lasted a decade. (:

secondary school friends.
friendship that would continue on. (:

the early childhood loves.

the SGC workaholics. (:

the psychologists-to-be. (:

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Title : simply joyful

12th June is just a few days away.
Well, I was regretting about planning such a celebration recently.
Why? Too much details to take note of,
and worries as well.
But nonetheless, seeing how excited my friends were towards the day,
it's enough to beat all those "regrets". (:
and now, im looking forward to the day too.
i might get busy and tired, but i know it would be fun.
and of course filled with LOVE.
right? (:

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lots of people have been asking me this question,
what's on your wishlist?
i do have a list of items that i wanted.
but they are things that i wanted to get by myself.
they are simply too expensive. (:
thanks for the thought love ones.
to me, it's the thoughts that count, not the number of presents.
just show up on the 12th, and i will be happy enough, ya? :D

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had a reunion with primary school friends in FB recently!
the feeling was indescribable. (:
but im sure it's POSITIVE feelings.
very positive ones. :D
that's one great thing i love about facebook. (:
it brings long-lost friends together.

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Title : case of wendy's lost itouch

as many has known from facebook regarding my lost itouch.
i have decided to make a police report.
i guess it's the only way to make myself feel better.
hopefully the police really can track the itouch down.
at least it would be a lesson for the culprit(s).

honestly, i hope i made the wrong conclusion.
but well, let's just leave it to the police to handle it.
and of course, i would love to share how i felt towards this issue with my friends,
my close friends whom i could trust.
i won't blog much about it,
but if you ask me about it, and i keep nothing from you, that means i believe you are someone i could trust. (:

somehow, the culprit(s) doesn't seem to be feeling remorseful or regretful about taking something that their friend cherished alot.
we shall see.

what goes around comes around. (:

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Title : does prayers work?

i just hope he could get what he wanted.
does praying for him works?
i really hope it does.
cos i just want him to love what he will be doing.
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remember my entry mentioning about the lost of my itouch?
and who i suspected took it?
well, today the younger sister wrote something on my facebook wall,
and haojie noted something and told me.
the wall post was posted via iphone.
usually when you post something via iphone or itouch,
you could see the device or any other phones.
even it's obviously them, how am i suppose to confront them?
):

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Title : quick updates

as mentioned in the previous entry that im joining the kitchen to work for this week.
and i finally managed to squeeze out an off day to update!
have been working in both kitchen and banquet department for this week.
mostly is in the kitchen.
maybe i have been with banquet for too long, and had already knew all the things,
i find kitchen working environment so much fun and interesting!
everything seems new to me. (:
great experience.
although it's tiring to work both departments, but it was really fun.
and of course the cash flows in. WOOHOO! haha!

not forgetting the negative sides, im really damn tired.
everyday 10am start work, yet work till late night.
plus the 2 departments are actually having conflicts about the part timers.
all thanks to that childish banquet captain. :\
whatever as long as im not affected directly. (:
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going to plan for my birthday celebration today!
& hopefully everything will be smooth, or maybe that's too unrealistic.
alright then, hope the hiccups will be small. =X

and im wanted to get so many things!
expensive things. :\
like a new phone and an itouch?
people would ask me to get iphone, that's the combination of the two.
hahha! we shall see. (:

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Title : trust vs mistrust

after having a short "confession" talk.
i decided to delete that heartbreaking sms,
and put all my trust back on him again.
like how it was in the past. (:
to some, i might be stupid to just forget it
and trust him back totally again.
but, it's okay. nobody is to blame for this.
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i lost my itouch.
yes. i lost it. :\
a x'mas gift from haojie. careless? i doubt so.
i suspect it was stolen.
and it was one of my close sisters at work.
i felt bad for suspecting her.
but everything seem to fall into place.
whatever it is, i can't get it back already.
and, im not going to confront anyone or whatever.
but im going to protect myself somehow, from her.
& it's the very first time i lost something, and something so meaningful and dear to me.
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joining the kitchen to work next week.
hope everything would be fun. (:

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Date :
Time :
Title : 戒不掉

黑夜将城市笼罩
想念蔓延在细胞
想你的拥抱你的微笑
想到快要疯掉
爱你到莫名其妙
什么已无可救药
没有你会死掉
我不再开心的笑
痛苦在胸口燃烧
在你离开以后
寂寞把我逼进了墙角
不听别人的劝告
才掉进你的圈套
现在知道却放不掉
世界慢慢的变老
戒不掉对你的依靠
失去重心该怎么好
每个表情都能治疗相思的煎熬
戒不掉你对我的好
像被关在想念的牢
只剩寂寞缠绕着我
我无路可逃
就是戒不掉对你的依靠
就是戒不掉你对我的好

Labels: PRIVATEspeech, RANDOM, spell L-O-V-E

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WENDY.
21st June.
Everything else, you'll know when you know me. (:

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