Date : Sunday, May 30, 2010
Time : 12:17 AM
Title : case of wendy's lost itouch

as many has known from facebook regarding my lost itouch.
i have decided to make a police report.
i guess it's the only way to make myself feel better.
hopefully the police really can track the itouch down.
at least it would be a lesson for the culprit(s).

honestly, i hope i made the wrong conclusion.
but well, let's just leave it to the police to handle it.
and of course, i would love to share how i felt towards this issue with my friends,
my close friends whom i could trust.
i won't blog much about it,
but if you ask me about it, and i keep nothing from you, that means i believe you are someone i could trust. (:

somehow, the culprit(s) doesn't seem to be feeling remorseful or regretful about taking something that their friend cherished alot.
we shall see.

what goes around comes around. (:

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Date : Sunday, May 23, 2010
Time : 11:51 PM
Title : does prayers work?

i just hope he could get what he wanted.
does praying for him works?
i really hope it does.
cos i just want him to love what he will be doing.
- - - - -

remember my entry mentioning about the lost of my itouch?
and who i suspected took it?
well, today the younger sister wrote something on my facebook wall,
and haojie noted something and told me.
the wall post was posted via iphone.
usually when you post something via iphone or itouch,
you could see the device or any other phones.
even it's obviously them, how am i suppose to confront them?
):

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Date : Sunday, May 16, 2010
Time : 12:14 PM
Title : quick updates

as mentioned in the previous entry that im joining the kitchen to work for this week.
and i finally managed to squeeze out an off day to update!
have been working in both kitchen and banquet department for this week.
mostly is in the kitchen.
maybe i have been with banquet for too long, and had already knew all the things,
i find kitchen working environment so much fun and interesting!
everything seems new to me. (:
great experience.
although it's tiring to work both departments, but it was really fun.
and of course the cash flows in. WOOHOO! haha!

not forgetting the negative sides, im really damn tired.
everyday 10am start work, yet work till late night.
plus the 2 departments are actually having conflicts about the part timers.
all thanks to that childish banquet captain. :\
whatever as long as im not affected directly. (:
- - - - - -

going to plan for my birthday celebration today!
& hopefully everything will be smooth, or maybe that's too unrealistic.
alright then, hope the hiccups will be small. =X

and im wanted to get so many things!
expensive things. :\
like a new phone and an itouch?
people would ask me to get iphone, that's the combination of the two.
hahha! we shall see. (:

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Date : Saturday, May 08, 2010
Time : 2:30 PM
Title : trust vs mistrust

after having a short "confession" talk.
i decided to delete that heartbreaking sms,
and put all my trust back on him again.
like how it was in the past. (:
to some, i might be stupid to just forget it
and trust him back totally again.
but, it's okay. nobody is to blame for this.
- - - - -

i lost my itouch.
yes. i lost it. :\
a x'mas gift from haojie. careless? i doubt so.
i suspect it was stolen.
and it was one of my close sisters at work.
i felt bad for suspecting her.
but everything seem to fall into place.
whatever it is, i can't get it back already.
and, im not going to confront anyone or whatever.
but im going to protect myself somehow, from her.
& it's the very first time i lost something, and something so meaningful and dear to me.
- - - - -

joining the kitchen to work next week.
hope everything would be fun. (:

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Date : Wednesday, May 05, 2010
Time : 10:38 PM
Title : 戒不掉

黑夜将城市笼罩
想念蔓延在细胞
想你的拥抱你的微笑
想到快要疯掉
爱你到莫名其妙
什么已无可救药
没有你会死掉
我不再开心的笑
痛苦在胸口燃烧
在你离开以后
寂寞把我逼进了墙角
不听别人的劝告
才掉进你的圈套
现在知道却放不掉
世界慢慢的变老
戒不掉对你的依靠
失去重心该怎么好
每个表情都能治疗相思的煎熬
戒不掉你对我的好
像被关在想念的牢
只剩寂寞缠绕着我
我无路可逃
就是戒不掉对你的依靠
就是戒不掉你对我的好

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Date : Tuesday, May 04, 2010
Time : 1:36 AM
Title : the wounds

You said time will heal all the wounds.
Really?

If so, I hope it doesn't take long.
I am very uncomfortable about how I am feeling now.
It's simply incomplete.

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Date : Monday, May 03, 2010
Time : 1:24 PM
Title : 折叠式爱情

一起在海边吹风 忽然有流星划过
滚烫的手 降落肩头
能强烈感觉胸口的震动
偶尔温柔的热络 含有暗示的幽默
你想什麼 我不太懂
只晓得期待越多越难过
你带著可以折叠的爱情
我在等不会变形的真心
被抱在你怀里 却要提防你
爱要多聪明才能逃得过哭泣
走走停停的时钟 深深浅浅的互动
你没有说 一句爱我
却把我摆在爱的氛围中
你带著可以折叠的爱情
我在等不会变形的真心
被抱在你怀里 却要提防你
你那种可以折叠的爱情
爱要多聪明才能逃得过哭泣
带给我夹著开心的伤心
有时候挣扎著 陷落在泥泞
有时又忘了一切的 飞行
这是幸福的等候 或心酸的前奏
要放下太多的疑惑 才能专心去快乐
你那种可以折叠的爱情
带给我夹著开心的伤心
有时又忘了一切的 飞行
有时候挣扎著 陷落在泥泞
面对你可以折叠的爱情
该要用什麼样子的表情
为什麼不能问 不能更透明
想要保护自尊的爱藏著 孤寂

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Date : Sunday, May 02, 2010
Time : 10:12 PM
Title : once again

It simply reminded me of that particular day 5 to 6 years ago.
It's the actual same suspicious and feelings I had back then.
I am really very worried.
I am really afraid that my trust and faith in you would be betrayed
out of no where and for no reason.
Please tell me that I'm thinking too much.

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Date :
Time : 12:50 AM
Title : silence is golden.

If keeping silent could avoid frictions with someone else,
I guess Silence is then Gold.

I know some might disagree with this.
But, this is what I feel, today.
Was suppose to be a day out, shopping for my black skirt for work.
Ended up accompany haojie to get his new phone.
Went to Plaza Singapura first. No stock.
Honestly, I just thought we would shop around awhile and look for my black skirt,
before heading off to another starhub centre at orchard.
but, sadly, no.
He was really in a bad mood, and I just have to shut up.
Even by shutting up, he picked on my actions and behaviors.
Yeah. Lucky him, I have a good temper. =X
But obvious facial expression I guess? He knew my face was totally black.
Somehow, I know his bad mood is due to the "out of stock, but i still want to get my phone badly!" feelings. Keeping quiet and not say the wrong things is the best at that particular moment.
Guess I was right? Why? Cos once we found the starhub centre, got stock for his phone,
he apologized and said that he knew he shouldn't threw temper and he could see from my face that im unhappy.
Well, since he already apologised, what can i do?
Tell him how unhappy i was, then start another quarrel?
Nah. I just smiled and told myself it's okay.
Everyone's excited about getting their phones, and most people are concern with their own things, and ignore the others. In this case, my shopping for the needs.
After getting his phone, finally some shopping for my skirt.
At least we did some. Physically is "we", but seem more like "I".
He was literally following me, like im some princess doing shopping, and needed someone to carry those things. -.-" just that he was too obsess with the new phone.
Again, I convinced myself that it's okay.
Everyone is interested in new gadgets, at least most guys do?
Even though I am really burning inside, and so upset and sian about the day that I actually looked forward to turning out to be this way. :\

& that's why, i realised that im kept quiet about alot of things today,
applying strategies to reduce whatever unhappiness within myself.
i guess, i did the right thing to keep my mouth shut, contain unhappy thing to myself.
at least it would have prevent several frictions, which would spoil the day more?

- - - - -
sometimes, i feel that im keeping too much things to myself.
i don't have much self-disclosure with people around me at times.
is that even normal?
after learning about social psychology, somehow most people do disclose information about themselves to people they love like friends and all.
but i think im doing very little of those. :\
maybe i should learn to open myself up more?
should i ?

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