Date : Sunday, November 29, 2009
Time : 2:07 AM
Title : Mathematicophobia

I think I have a serious phobia.
The "Mathematicophobia".
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The same damn feeling I felt about 4 to 5 years ago,
is back to haunt me once again.
The exact fear and worry for it.
The only fear that could really send me straight into tears.
I hate it!

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I guess I grew up. (:
Cos I know how to control it much better now.
& I am much more self-motivating a lot more than before.

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P.S. any mathematician willing to lend me his/her brain for a day?
or rather 2.5 hours?

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Date : Thursday, November 26, 2009
Time : 12:33 AM
Title : 不用去计较

爱一个人，
是不用去计较谁付出的比较多。

如果要计算那每一点的付出，
请问，你要算到什么时候?

Labels: PRIVATEspeech, RANDOM, spell L-O-V-E

Date : Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Time : 12:54 AM
Title : Understanding

Do people feel more disappointment when:

• they gave too much, and there's no sign of return?
• they just expect a little return after giving what they think is alot?
• they are just too selfish to want a particular type of return, yet didn't get it?

Actually, I don't know.
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Time spent together is already reduced
due to my examinations, and his work.
Even when there's opportunity to talk online,
majority of the time is spent on waiting for replies.
Even when there's chance to talk on the phone,
it's just 2 minutes,
seem topic-less, and when you just want to hear his voice,
his next sentence is
"okay lah. go sleep already. good night. byebye."
No sms after that (which it used to have).
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I should seriously start to reflect about this,
AFTER my papers.
For the time being, just take it as nothing in particular.
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Oh well, maybe I demanded too much.

Labels: PRIVATEspeech, RANDOM, spell L-O-V-E

Date : Friday, November 20, 2009
Time : 10:05 AM
Title : First Paper

20 November 2009
My First Examination Paper in NTU.
HP101 Introduction to Psychology.
1430 to 1700 (2.5 Hours)
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I am having mixed feelings about this.
Honestly, I am rather confident about this paper as compared to the others,
still, not so confident when I am studying for it.
Too much terms and definitions to remember.
Too much symptoms and functions to remember as well.
It's challenging to be a psy major, with all these weird terms!
(I know it's the same to every other major, there are challenging parts to them)
Somehow, I feel cognitive dissonance (don't know if I use it right here).
It makes me go nuts just by reading the last few lectures,
yet I enjoy knowing more about those facts regarding our own behaviors and all.
Guess that's something good. (:

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Oh well, BEST OF LUCK FOR ME! :D
& the others who are having papers too. (:

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Date : Thursday, November 12, 2009
Time : 9:52 PM
Title : STUDY!

Time to really start studying!
Exam officially starts next week!
GO GO GO WENDY!
it's only 3 WEEKS!

Labels: PRIVATEspeech, RANDOM

Date : Wednesday, November 04, 2009
Time : 12:03 PM
Title : I still love you dearly.

just 5 words, from him,
it removes all the unhappiness totally.
(:

Labels: PRIVATEspeech, RANDOM, spell L-O-V-E

Date :
Time : 9:34 AM
Title : Push Away

Nobody loves being pushed away,
I am no exceptional.

It's so painful that you won't even notice that you're already crying madly.
You can't see the weapon; You can't see the wound.
Only the victim felt the pain.
The pain increased massively,
when it's your loved one who pushed you away.

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I don't understand why he did that,
cos he never did.

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